When I began many years ago on what some refer to as a “Spiritual Path”, it didn’t resemble ANY story that any of us may have been taught throughout the years of CCD, Christian dogma, Bible School on Sundays, teen meetings, Edge, Young Women’s night or so on…(no offense to those who subscribe to organized or unorganized religion) The path I had taken was wanting to know what I could do to help my humankind, using my own brand of energy work and other things I had been taught by people in my surroundings as well as things I had become very interested in and learned on my own such as Angel card reading or Energy healing. I became very good at what I was self teaching myself until I wanted more, and what I learned was that obtaining enlightenment isn’t sitting around a campfire or well as was in Biblical times, it would come at a cost.
This past week as I sat going through the ritual of Spring cleaning, I came across VOLUMES of workbooks and even more VOLUMES of notebooks from the classes I had taken. I think I spent more time revisiting what I learned then I did accomplishing a dent in the chore I had originally set out to achieve. There was one thing in common with ALL of the pages in those books… the bottom of the pages noted Copyright symbols, “property of…” and the common “All Right Reserved” sentence. It kind of threw me back with thoughts of how people having a certain audacity to try and copyright energy work or an esoteric skill like dowsing. But so be it….
So I had a conversation with my better half. In a discussion about these teachings since say, 1996, and with my adventures of what I had learned and what I had PAID to learn, my future husband retorted, “Shit, you should have a doctorate in this stuff”. He reminded me of all of the gurus out there like Tony Robbins, Carolyn Myss, Vishen Lakihni, and Doreen Virtue. Then being the insightful partner that he is, he asked me..”but Angel, do you think Buddha or Christ ever charged to have followers?” Let me just tell you, he always seems to have a way of hitting the nail on the head. I had spent a lot of money becoming a Doctor of Thinkology but STILL don’t know how to present what I have learned to make the money in return to pay the bill for what I have learned!!
So, this morning as I meditated and asked my Angels what message or lesson I was to absorb today, here is what I got … Is it really about helping people get better or getting them on the right track in their lives using this work or profiting from what I have learned and am ready to teach? In other words, what am I missing? Is it really about an equal exchange of energy or about finding an issue with profiting at what some call being a “Prophet?
After reading through all of the stuff I had hoarded away, I became very befuddled! I have this inner voice now that wants to know:
Why do I find fault with taking money to be recognized as a spiritual leader?
The Ascended Masters had followers which carried alms to share in repayment, but it seems the greatest thing that the healed people did was to share the message or to be more like the Ascended Master they had come to see. Many of these messages are STILL repeated to this day.
Call it envy, resentment or jealousy, but I’m to the opinion that the mission should FIRST be to convey Spiritual Enlightenment and Spiritual Guidance to assist with the greater good of some or all. Im just having a hard time with putting a price on that enlightenment. I ask myself over and over “How can I basically Profit from being a Prophet”.
Do I need my own big 6-car house in Miami to be a spiritual leader? Do I need a private jet or a shark skin suit? Not really, is it nice? Sure..but should material wealth be considered a gift or part of the deal. Right now, I need a prophet to help me with sorting that out and accepting that. This seems to be the missing link for me on how to turn my what I now know into a life sustaining means without feeling like I am ripping somebody off in their journey for enlightenment or help. Afterall, ..I am sure that Prophet will want to Profit from their advice.
In the end, it brings me to the thought that there must be some further evolution in store for me, some homework that I still have left to do. Perhaps it is a guidance that I am supposed to be listening to now that I have a little extra time on my hands to do it. I know that I want to teach joy and teach recovery to those that are seeking it, I just have a hard time setting up fees and an equally difficult time with those who chastise me for wanting solely to ask for a “Love Offering”.
I would love to hear your feedback because for the first time in a very long time, I am surrendering my thoughts and manifesting clarity.
Be Blessed, Prosper and Remember to Pay it Forward…Carpe Diem!